This morning I received another wafting in of Jupiter retro which is opposing natal Jupiter retro in gemini it’s place at the head of my T square of Pluto/ Uranus and itself opposing Saturn / Chiron. Currently Mercury /Neptune/ Venus in transit posited on the natal Saturn/Chiron. The tone was sombre, the mood serious, the information that was communicated was profound, I heard it, felt it in my cells and tissues. My very existence at soul level became opaque, transparent and obvious. Stuff I had felt, known for years..all my life in fact, that had constituted my Chironic wound was now laid open to me as to why, how, who and where it had come from. It went something like this. The trigger “bang” moment was hubby, he was working from home today, I was relieved as he works too hard, many many hours with high levels of stress. (just like my own father had). I happened to speak, Mercury, whilst he was thinking about work and he did his usual Aries rising rote response which whilst polite mean “shut the fuck up.” That’s when the dear departed flew in with – don’t you get it, realise as a woman your supposed to keep your gob shut, wait till he, the man addresses you, and when he does only answer in a manner that relates to what he asked about. Yeah I get it. My Venus (cappy) peregrine in my third, Mercurys house, is exactly the same as my own mothers, same planet, same house, same condition. It’s about the siblings, about them being heard at your expense as they favourite.

My mother had told me many years ago about her dad, how she could never interrupt him, and how he was always busy, about his rote responses. HMM .Tell me about it. About how on a Sunday he used to tap his lap when he was ready to give her her five mins of his time a week. HMM .About how he treated his wife, my gran, he loved her for sure, was devoted, like both my dad to my mother and my husband is to me but he never listened to her, she never said much, (there was just no point) as she had been conditioned by her own parents about how “good little girls” are seen and not heard, how they only speak when spoken to, by their husbands or in fact anybody at all. Well fuck that, it’s outdated. With Libra on my twelfth cusp, that bloody Venus in the third is the ruler. I get it. It’s a shut the fuck up Kat.
She, btw got dementia- he – grandad sure “paid “ for his riding roughshod over her Mercury- speech- ideas-thought processes, they/ she had given up, gone underground, dementia was the outward sign her synapses had calcified- Saturn- lack of use. It doesn’t stop there though, grandads own mother had also gone same way- dementia- as her husband same as grandad, he completely ran roughshod over his wife, very aggressive with it, with his liking for alcohol.He was a dominating bully, his wife, my great gran pussy footed (yes Libra) around him, and as little boys marry a woman like their own mother, he was no different, the karma came a knocking , he had married a mute, same as his father and for same reasons, yes karma again, knock knock heres her dementia.(have this it’s yours).No one noticed why, the common denominator is their (the men’s) behaviour towards their wives. It continued, the dead do talk, btw it’s grandma..Jupiter…

Hubby is not interested in anything you have got to say, he sure as hell is not interested in my astrological insight or in fact anything the dead tell me. In fact he’s not interested in anything else either. It’s not personal however, if he traded me in or vice verse for a new model it would likely be the fuck same..it WAS the fuck same, my ex ditto, the first one before him….they all treated me the same, ( they all the favourite , first son btw) – you knew they would be! and I have been just bringing the Libra.(aries polar opposite) Grateful. hmm. Same as mother, same as granny. I had written in my book about my MC/IC being 21 Leo /Aqua- which was dads lunar nodes and his grandad, the next male up the line before him and why, well it’s because they were all doing the same, the Leo end, it was all about them, being the important male, sun, and them getting their agenda out there. Thanks Jupiter retrograde I really am grateful that you shared despite it being shit for me as a woman. Things are going to have to be addressed as I have three daughters, who all need to be heard.