Waking at dawn, I opened the windows and listened to the loud chorus of birds, my husband was sleeping soundly. I decided I would lay with preseli, putting my dragon in one hand and a small rough chunk in the other. Lucidly thoughts were floating about but the first thing I noticed was a physical sensation behind my left ear, it was the usual light touch of spirit. At first no astrology was included, although I felt understanding about where I am in my life and then again in the bigger picture, the microcosm, macrocosm type of thing – It was now I met Jupiter currently at 22 saggy. I was informed as to why (and what) each planet brought to me each time they crossed the 14-21 saggy area of my natal chart and the challenges that were encountered. Firstly as a child of 11 transit Neptune had crossed “my river of Styx” and during its passage had brought issues of loss- pain- heartache and grief to my life as my beloved cat- small pet- had died suddenly- my Pluto/Uranus is in Virgo- the small pet took this first hit, as these two are in square as part of my t square. After Neptune had retrograded it came across those same degrees again this time activating the other end (the Saturn, Juno, Mars, Chiron, in Pisces) it was then my father took his own life. So I received more of the same Neptune energy- loss- pain- grief and sacrifice, my father took his life as he was sick, more Pisces and felt like he was a burden- Saturn- to my mother and us kids, so he chose to set us free- Uranus conjunct Pluto in opposition. Many years passed and only personal planets passed over “my river” and thankfully nothing too memorable transpired until transit Saturn reached my north node, this is when I met my lovely husband, who is devoted to me just as my father was to my mother.

When I was 36 (my nodal return) I was pregnant with our first child, Pluto had crept up and was crossing “my river”. Unbeknownst to me transit Saturn was now in my 8th house conjunct natal Jupiter in opposition to transit Pluto in my second house, in square to Pluto/Uranus and in square on the other side to Saturn ,Chiron, Mars, Juno etc. Pinball wizard was about to kick off. Saturn rules the bones and I slipped a disc in my spine which trapped my sciatic nerve, I was paralysed with pain, feared losing my baby, was unable to move or take any effective pain relief, it would have been a relief to end it.I felt this as my father had felt this and Pluto was in my second saggy house dredging it up, it was about self worth(his) about having high ideals and being unable to attain them- in dads case, note my saggy, sciatic nerve was impacted, it zapped Mars in my stellium in Pisces and yes sudden- Uranus-surgery- Mars was needed. The baby at 24 weeks got anaesthetised- Pisces stellium- and Pluto nearly had him away whilst we were on “ the river crossing”. We were both razed to the ground but survived. Eventually the baby was born “normal” but actually turned out gifted. As

I believe– Pisces- that during the tug of war that had gone on in my chart, (life) over my second /eighth houses where Saturn won out over Pluto (but I did lose – more Pisces- a Saturn – business) that Saturn rewarded him with a musical- Pisces- gift and me obviously with a normal healthy baby. The business was lost as I clearly could not work was a healing- Pisces stellium, one. I had been an aromatherapist and a reflexologist, (feet) but my area of expertise was with using oils to clear the skin of spots, acne amongst other things, the skin being Saturn’s domain. The next time a transit planet crossed “the Styx” it was 2016 and sure enough this time I had studied astrology long enough to know how it would likely transpire..I was concerned. On the timing in question the transit planet was Saturn and on its first pass into the river I had tweaked my back. I was being very careful at this point as this is Saturn who we know rules the bones and on its second pass I was suddenly- Uranus in square with Pluto of course, flat on my back, this time with a blood clot in my saggy leg. The pain, not you again – Pisces stellium – was immense and I was rushed into the hospital, where I was incarcerated- again as I had been 14 years earlier. This time though, Saturn brought me different stuff than on my previous run in with him. He brought me an angel who stood by my hospital bed in all his glory that whilst I thought it was a morphine vision my husband who is a rational Gemini with a Virgo stellium also witnessed this. He was not alone either as he brought my late father and another one of my guides who I had met previously in meditation, my husbands grandad- Jupiter- was also with them, they had come together to hold space whilst I underwent surgery- yes Mars in transit was exact conjunct transit Saturn on the day of the first surgery. I was awake whilst this 6 hour procedure was performed and I can tell you it was one hell- Pluto- of a saturn- test – for me. I was terrified. Whilst I was undergoing this my father “lay in me” ensconced in my body like he was in a tomb, I saw his face just as I re remembered it. I asked in my head “what are you doing?” He answered with his face full of love “I’m taking this hit for you”.

The recovery was long as you would expect with Saturn but somehow through crisis came transformation, this I can now see was thePluto/Uranus in square that brought this and the reason dad was involved was because it hit on his suicide which sits in my Pisces stellium and further squares Jupiter in my eighth, I have a lot of guides ancestrally, my late father being one.
It was only this morning this was laid bare to me. All this knowledge- Jupiter – was made conscious- Pluto- as transit Jupiter is offering up knowledge as he’s just crossed the 22 saggy “river of Styx” turning it into one hell of a grand cross.